tired

I’m tired a lot these days. I know chemo fatigue can last years but I don’t feel like I was this tired in Feburary – wasn’t I shoveling like a madwoman? I did like 4 four hour shoveling stints….. So, what’s with this backsliding? I have cut down on the swimming a lot because I’m tired…… and it’s harder to drag myself through swimming than the others because it’s so solitary. I’m tired biking and walking too – and I do short change Pinky some. But I still bike. But….. I really don’t enjoy it as much as I used to. I just refuse to quit, to give in to whatever the problem is. But it’s starting to feel like enough already…..

I was nauseous, too, for like a month. Thought it was viral, but it lasted too long. Then thought it was the bisphosphonate -- talked with the onc about it, stopped it for a month..... didn't get better. Then was pretty sure I had it, vitamin D toxicity -- I'd been taking a double dose, 2300 mg/d, after the onc said to take 1,000 and then a couple of months later my regular doc did my D levels again and said, "Whatever you're taking, double it." SHe didn't ask what I was taking or when I'd started, and I wondered if the levels were taking awhile to come up...... But I just had my D levels checked on Monday and they're STILL low. (40, the scale being 30-100.) It's "low normal." The problem is, that's what it was when I STARTED taking this D. So where's the D going? Am I not metabolizing it, and it's just toxifying my liver? How can I find out? WHat else could be making me nauseous?

I've been nauseous very seldom in my life. This nausea wasn't like pregnancy nausea -- not relieved by eating (that's low blood sugar nausea.) I did keep trying. Made me gassy, even put on a couple of pounds trying.....I was nauseous and shaky, anyway. It's more like the toxic nausea..... like chemo nausea, and like the nausea I had when I had niacin poisoning in the late '80s. But the doc said today that the D levels are still low and I should go back on it. I'm sorry to hear that because I've been NOT nauseous for the last week, since I stopped taking the D. That's why I wonder, maybe the supplementation is not working, and ONLY toxifying. Have to figure out what tests might check for that. They only did my D levels -- I bet there's something else that needs to be done.....

Any thoughts or ideas, I'll take 'em! Meanwhile..... I'm tired.